Finding My True Value in Jesus
During childhood and throughout high school I was a good kid; I got good grades, had a good group of friends, and did all of the “right things.” A lot of my identity was found in being this good person, about not messing up and trying to be as perfect as I could…at least on the outside. I was extremely self-conscious and found much of my self-worth in other peoples’ opinions of me. I wanted people to see me as having my life together and being successful, but that wasn’t always the case.
Because I found most of my worth in what others thought of me, I wanted to please everyone, which involved me changing the way I acted and talked, depending on the group of people I was around.
I didn’t realize what I was doing at the time, but this constant changing to fit other peoples’ expectations led me to have a very unstable self-identity. I wasn’t sure who I really was and who I was pretending to be for other people.
I really got into trouble when I started changing myself for a guy. I knew what I wanted in a relationship and areas I wanted to keep for marriage, but I knew that the guy I like ...